Just before I opened my old shop in 2002 I got into a car accident with my Ford Bronco II. It was a pretty bad ass little truck...Black & Tan, 4-Wheel Drive. It was an 88' but purred like a lion...haha. It got me through Chicago's brutal winters...I never had to shovel myself out of a parking spot, gotta love 4-wheel drive! I didn't really need a car during the years while I had my shop open. I lived behind my shop. Atomix Cafe...my favorite coffee spot, was a few doors down from my storefront. If I needed a gift, there were plenty of artsy boutiques within walking distance. The laundry mat, grocery store, florist, daughters school all just a hop a skip and a jump away. If I needed to go a bit further, I could hail a cab at the corner or hop on the bus. I had a fun batending gig a few nights a week that put lots of extra cash in my pocket. Life was simple then. After I closed my shop there was this steady slow decline of everything good in my life. For the last 2 years things have been getting better...slooowly. But I have been so fearful in moving forward that something bad will happen or I will f@#% things up! I realize I'm creating obstacles with my self doubt and fear. I have never been an insecure person, but along the way there was a lot of loss of power. I experienced so much tragedy...deep wisdom gained if that amounts to anything. Anyway it's time to get prosperity flowing again...I need a new car and a new broom too! I have a long list of things to submit to the Universe!
After I had my son 2 years ago I obviously had some weight to lose. I also cut off my beautiful dreads that were below my booty during that time. At first it felt liberating, but then I felt stripped bare like a bird whose feathers had fallen out. I didn't realize how much I hid behind my hair...it was my armor. I started gaining more weight...ugh! I already need to lose pregnacy fat! A friend of mine who is an energy healer called me out on it. I don't know what's the hell is wrong with me! She took a long pause and a deep breath and said..."you don't feel safe in the world...you're physically expanding out into your energy field...to protect yourself" O.K. enough of this shit...I need to butch up and handle my business. I need to conjure up the FORCE and annihilate my demons once and for all! I just joined Weight Watchers...next week is my first meeting, where I get weighed in...ahh! I hate the thought of it, but I need help until I become more self-disciplined! Time to clean house! I used to have an amazing handcarved broom. The broom handle was about 2 ft. long and carved into the shape of a phallus...that's right a giant dick! It was painted with symbols all over it and had a snake running up to the head of the broom. I felt it was time to pass it on and I sold it at my shop. It's time for a new broom and a new life!